I still miss the sun – chapter nineteen -

                                                          

Xander hoped he was still asleep, he hoped that was just a dream, but somehow he doubted it.

 

 He had seen many things that would have scared a normal man blind, since he had met Buffy…but nothing had prepared him to what was witnessing.

 

A part of his mind was telling him to turn his back at what he was seeing and end that nightmare…but the images he was seeing, the battle he was witnessing  was hypnotic.

 

Buffy and Spike were fighting. Never had he seen so much blood, so many demons and vampires. Buffy and Spike were fighting on opposite sides of a  hall, taking down as many demons as they could, with a strength and determination it almost didn’t seem human.

 

They probably didn’t even realize they were moving and fighting in sync. He screamed when a huge demon appeared behind  Buffy’s shoulders, but couldn’t help sighing in relief when a simple look from Spike was enough to warn her friend.

 

He could feel Willow and Giles, feel they were fighting as well. He didn’t want to move toward them, but he couldn’t help it, it was almost like they were calling him.

 

The hall was lit only by a purple light, he could see some flickers of green light and he instinctively knew it was coming from Eric…he suspected he was surrounded by it as well.

 

< Am I really dreaming? > he wondered.

 

<Does it really matter? > Eric’s voice answered him.

 

<I guess it doesn’t…what am I doing here? > he asked.

 

Eric answered him in a language Xander was almost sure was Latin  <Oculos meos es! Brachia mea es! Eorum bellatorem es! [be my eyes, be my arms…be their warrior]>

 

Although he didn’t understand what Eric had told him, he knew what he had to do. There was a  junction at the end of the hall without even thinking he went to the left.

 

 He wasn’t afraid anymore. he didn’t fear anything. Although he could clearly feel Willow and Giles he wasn’t afraid for them, either. He knew what to do.

 

He slowly walked toward the purple mist, there were two horned demons guarding it. They didn’t seem to acknowledge his presence. He could almost see his two friends within the purple mist, he could discern their bodies.

 

< Be my arms, Xander>

 

Eric told him. Xander closed his eyes and stretched his arms toward the purple mist, it almost seemed solid, and was cold.

 

Xander couldn’t help blinking when from his hands poured out a greenish iridescent  light. He arched his head, he could feel energy  flowing throughout his body, the purple mist almost melted against the greenish light.

 

< Enter and be their warrior, Xander…>

 

Xander took a deep breath. he glimpsed Willow and Giles: strong  snake like strings were all around their heads. They both had  their eyes open but didn’t move.

 

<Don’t try to free them…>  Eric warned. Xander nodded, without even realizing what he was doing.  He entered the purple mist, there weren’t smells within it, there weren’t rumors except for Willow and Giles’ panting breaths. Xander moved toward them.

 

<Be their warrior, Xander>  Eric told him.

 

Xander knelt in front of his friends. He took both their hands in his wincing at how cold they were and closed his eyes.

 

Flashes of colors and images filled his head. He tilted his head back and gasped.

 

In the living room of Giles’ apartment, a sleeping Xander stirred from Anya’s arms and screamed while blood poured out from his nostrils.

 

He had entered the leak.